Just when you think it's safe...

Last friday, my employer told me that my job was being eliminated. I had expected this maybe, but wasn't for sure. It's really a blessing in disguise, but at the same time, I gots to pay my bills. So now, I'm back on the job search train and my moving to L.A. has been put on hold. Ugh.

I turn 30 in 13 days too.

What I need right now is some good luck, a kick-ass job and a stiff drink.

xoxo

Overusage...

Have you noticed lately the overusage of things. You know--catch phrases, fuel, food, etc.

I'm in a weird mood today. Depressed for no reason. I hate when i get in those funks where I didn't really do anything to get in it. Now, all I can do is listen to depressing songs over and over. It's like a downward spiral of unintentional depression. It's so bad, I'm enjoying cleaning. Oh, who am I kidding. I love cleaning. Thanks Mom for making me OCD to the eleventyth degree. So now, I'm overusing cleaning a The Cure.

Next, after my show I thought, I really have to stay on my diet and exercise program. I haven't. Seriously, I've had junk everyday since the end of my show. AND--I've lost weight. During the show, my pants were lose. They are falling off of me now. I have like two pairs of pants that fit me. In addition, it's an overuse of fast food and telling people who skinny I am.

Lastly, I'm overusing my brain. I think too much. I'm not kidding-I do think bitches. I'll just sit and think about things for hours at a time and I can't focus on anything else.

Okay kiddies, it's time for some hot tea and cleaning baseboards. I might even iron my underwear for old times sake.

xoxo

Oh, what a night...

Last night was the first great weather night we've had in Indy. Cool crisp wind. It was awesome. I opened up all my windows, cleaned my patio off and sat out there and drank beer in between commercial breaks of "Top Model". I felt so butch.

xoxo

The past...

You know when things happen in the past and you're all like "what the hell happened?". Why didn't so-and-so call me back, why did so-and-so fall off the face of the earth? Sometimes, those people re-enter you life and it's freaky.

Seriously, in the last month or so, I've had like a handful of people I hadn't talked to in years find me. I'm a firm believer in that "things happen for a reason". As corny is it is...it's true. These people left your life for a specific reason and they're coming back for another reason. Seriously, one of these people I hadn't talked to in ten years. Dates me, doesn't it?

And nothing really happened to make these people leave my life. There wasn't any fight or any drama. It just one day happened. No more communication. We just lost touch.

With everything that's been going on in my life this last year, friends...future and past...are all welcome.

xoxo

I've been slacking...

Sorry kids. So much has been going on and I've been so busy, I haven't had time to write. One of these days, I'll actually get to sit on my couch and watch a TV show LIVE!

Speaking of live, I feel so alive today. I got out of that post-sissies slump and now I feel quite happy. It's like Nicole Ritchie herself came to my apartment, showed me her boobs and left me $500.

No, I'm not on drugs.

xoxo